The moon bled my words 

I Bleed Words

Another eternity shatters to six thousand splinters of my own being. And my planets of porcelain have been smashed to nothing but agony. That contains me, and I’m still tripping, stumbling, and falling again and shattering, trying to reach out for your delusional hands. But then I remember, you were too long gone. And, love, I’ve tried to move on. I’ve lived on the moon and every night I’ve sat in one of the craters and sung our song again. And, love, you didn’t come, you never came but I swear I saw the moon bleed my words.


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3rd Day Quote Challenge – God

Finally I’m on a third day of a challenge. I chose Mark Twain for the last challenge.

If God is what people say there can be no one in the universe so unhappy as He; for He sees unceasingly myriads of His creatures suffering unspeakable miseries–and besides this foresees how they are going to suffer during the remainder of their lives. One might as well say, “As unhappy as God.”


No man that has ever lived has done a thing to please God–primarily. It was done to please himself, then God next.


God pours out love upon all with a lavish hand — but He reserves vengeance for His very own.

Rules you must follow:
Post three consecutive days.
#2 You can pick one or three quotes per day.
#3 Challenge three different bloggers per day.

I nominate….
#1 Words and Notion

#2 Seeking Romance
#3 Smiling Notes

I enjoyed doing a quote challenge and once again thanks to the person who included me to his  list, thank you Kah ChoonTo those persons I nominated, thanks for participating. Waiting for the next challenge!

Have a great Monday ahead!



2nd Day Quote Challenge – Learning

Way to go..2nd day challenge about learning by Maya Angelou.


“You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I’ll rise.”


“When I’m writing, I am trying to find out who I am, who we are, what we’re capable of, how we feel, how we lose and stand up, and go on from darkness into darkness.”


“You may not control all the events that happen to you, but you can decide not to be reduced by them.”


Rules you must follow:
Post three consecutive days.
#2 You can pick one or three quotes per day.
#3 Challenge three different bloggers per day.

I nominate….
#1 Impreint

#2 Dilkash
#3 Jilhampton

I thought that I was going to skip the 2nd day… TIME CHECK: 12:09am.. I think I failed …still I continue to work for the 3rd day,though! 😊


1st Day Quote Challenge – You

Thanks for nominating me for a three day quote challenge Kah Choon. As a response to your challenge here’s a three famous quotes of Mandy Hale


“Learn to be alone and like it. There is nothing more freeing & empowering than learning to like your own company.”

“If you learn to really sit with loneliness and embrace it for the gift that it is…an opportunity to get to know YOU, to learn how strong you really are, to depend on no one but YOU for your happiness…you will realize that a little loneliness goes a LONG way in creating a richer, deeper, more vibrant and colorful YOU.”

“You will never gain anyone’s approval by begging for it. When you stand confident in your own worth, respect follows.”


Rules you must follow:
Post three consecutive days.
#2 You can pick one or three quotes per day.
#3 Challenge three different bloggers per day.

I nominate….
#2 ShinePositivePower
#3 Marica

Sharing is giving…I hope that everyone will participate to the challenge. 🙂


Meet and Greet 12/18

Dream Big, Dream Often


It’s Meet and Greet Weekend at Dream Big!!

Ok so here are the rules:

  1. Leave a link to your page or post in the comments of this post.
  2. Reblog this post.  It helps you, it helps me, it helps everyone!  So don’t be selfish, hit the reblog button.
  3. Edit your reblog post and add tags (i.e. reblogging, reblog, meet n greet, link party, etc.), it helps, trust me on this one.
  4. Share this post on social media.  Many of my non-blogger friends love that I put the Meet n Greet on Facebook and Twitter because they find new bloggers to follow.  This helps also, trust me.

Now that all the rules have been clearly explained get out there and Meet n Greet your butts off!

See ya Monday!


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My Heart Speaks Volume 02: I Miss You Big Brother

December 16, 2015 – it’s your BIRTHDAY!


I was just staring at my computer monitor… I don’t know where would I start. Should I start asking HOW ARE YOU? or should I start with WHY DO WE LIVE AWAY FROM EACH OTHER?

I guess I should start with saying, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MY BIG BROTHER! (I know it’s late, let’s pretend that it still your birthday, though!). Yes, bro, it’s your birthday, meaning the start of “Simbang Gabi” (fyi, Simbang Gabi is a devotional nine-days series of masses. For more info you can check here: wikipedia) and we missed you a lotRemember, back then, we’re excited every 16th of December – waking up 3:00 AM to attend mass at 4:00 AM. We need to complete the nine-days Masses, we used to believe that if we complete the Simbang Gabi our wishes will come true. I know that it’s not my birthday and I may not be able to do the nine days masses, but my only wish… is to bring back the time that you were still with us. Come home with us, bro, let’s create another memories… memories that we can treasure. Memories that you missed from the day you left. You’d missed a lot of occasions like, dad and mom’s birthday. I was upset by that time, I don’t know if you just ignored or we are really forgotten.

The bond we had before… compare to our siblings, US was really different. We’re buddies…we sleep together in one bed…you fetch me on my school and remember when I got drunk? I was at my friend’s house and I texted mom that I couldn’t come home. I was surprised when they told me that you were outside, waiting for me, geez, you were like my boyfriend! There’s a lot of memories that I really miss. Being with you together with our family is the most important thing in this Christmas. But I guess that’s life.. life doesn’t turn out the way we want it. We are the one who’s responsible to the path that we choose.. and you chose to live away from us.

If by chance you realized that you wanted to come back, we’re just here,  welcoming you with open arms. We may not be able to see each other but one thing I’ll assure you, you’re always welcome. We love you bro, I never tell you how much exactly you mean to me but I LOVE YOU and GOD knows how much I really miss you… the laughs… the talks… the time that we spent together. You were my BEST FRIEND , the one I used to run and talk to. The one who always protect me, the one who cover up with all my mistakes to our parents. I may not even lost you literally but your absence make me feel that you were gone. I may not be your only sister but I know I’m your favorite, because I’m your first sister.

Thank you Big Brother, for everything you’ve done to me. For the hard work you did in our family. Thanks for always being the perfect older brother to me(us). My memories on my childhood, would not be perfect without an older brother like you, so, I am really grateful and honor to God for giving you as my brother.

Sorry, if I wasn’t able to accept that you already had your own life (new life from your second wife). For the time you feel alone and forgotten, I am so sorry. When you lead astray and I’m not there to redirect you, I am so sorry. For not giving you my full support when you chose to live with that bitch (yes! she’s a bitch), I’m truly sorry. Still I won’t approve her, though! Oh, I remember when you were married to your first wife, I don’t like her too! Now, I realized one thing, maybe I’ve got jealous or maybe because I used to be your only girl. Okay, for all that, I am so sorry!

Once again… happy happy birthday to my one and only big brother. I wish that you can celebrate the Christmas with us. Please come home for Christmas, your daughters waiting for you. Please visit them often…

You First Sister
(still your little sister),

I can’t believe I’ve been doing my second volume of My Heart Speaks (click the link I provide to read the volume one). 
Let me see if I can able to publish the third volume before the year end. Still don’t have any idea, though!

Sunshine Blogger Award


I’ve just started blogging a couple of months ago and I’ve never thought that I’ve been so active since the day I started. I am very happy and thankful to meloheart who nominated me for Sunshine Blogger Award, thank you for encouraging me to write and for the advised, to make my blog more worth itShe’s great in creating poem and expressing thoughts about love and true feelings. If you want to know more about her blog, just click the link I gave.

7 Facts about me…

  1. I hate BEEF.
  2. I hate household chores. I’m not a messy person, though!
  3. I’m attracted to those guys with 5 o’clock shadow. 🙂
  4. Most of my clothes are black.
  5. I’m tired of using FB (there’s a lot of fake people), so, I deactivated it since September ’15.
  6. I’m addicted to American series.
  7. I love chocolates, specially dark!

Now the rules for sunshine blogger award:
1.Thank the blogger who nominated you for the award.
2. Display the banner /sticker /logo on your blog.
3. Share 7 facts or things about yourself.
4. Nominate 5 bloggers that you admire and inform nominees by commenting on their blog.

My Nominees for Sunshine Blogger Award:
1. socialleadblog 
2. shinepositivepower
3. akhila 
4. belikewaterproduction
5. bisimodupe1975

I love their blogs, very inspiring. Try to check the link maybe you will love it too!



Uncertain Feelings: Dealing with a psychopath – Part 1

“Mom I’m here!”, I shouted upon entering the house. My mom Sophia, preparing dinner and look tired. “What do we have for di… mom are you okay?”, look’s worried.
” Erin…?”
“Mom, is there something wrong?”
“We have a lot of bills to pay…”, getting all the bills and handed it to me. “…and we don’t have enough money!”
“Okay, I’ll take care of these…”, I pulled out all the paper bills.
“Ow! by the way, where are the kids?”
“They’re upstairs, with your brother.”
“Okay, I’ll go and get them to have dinner”, I turned my back to get them. When my mom suddenly hugged me, “Thank you and I’m so sorry for causing you so…..”
“Mom, it’s okay! Don’t worry too much, okay!”, I cut whatever she was about to say, because it’s sound cheesy and I’m not used to that kind of drama. I really hate drama, I am not an expressive person, still I love them, though! I left mom in the kitchen to fetch my brother and the two kids.

We started our dinner when my sister arrived from work together with her husband. My sister, Rose, worked as a Secretary into a small private company while her husband Rey, worked as HR Officer, same company with my sister.

After the dinner I came straight to my room because I wanted to be alone. My tears suddenly fall, I can’t forget the look of my mom’s face when I got home. I am worried because of what happened earlier at the office, I don’t want them to notice that I’m having trouble with my job and planning to leave the company. But what will going to happen when I leave my current job, where can I get money to support them. I’m working as an IT Assistant in a small Construction Company. My tears keep on falling while remembering what happened.



Earlier in the office….

“What the hell are you doing?”
“Ahm, sir…who?”, all the staff in IT Department was shocked when we saw Mr. Santiago, mad as hell.
“You Erin!! Are you out of your f*****g mind?! How many times do I need to tell you that before leaving my office make sure you’ve done everything!”, he yelled at me. “Sir…I did what you want me to do, before leaving yesterday.”
“And what are you trying to say? Why don’t you go to my office and check it?! Damn!”, without second thought, I ran to his office, trembling. When I arrived, I checked his computer and some apps were damaged.
“Did you see some problem?” he smirked in triumph.
“Ahm..yes, and I don’t know how did it happened. Some apps were crushed…but…before leaving your office, it’s working.”,unless, you did something…obviously you did this for a reason.You rotten filthy dirty old man…you really get into my nerve. At the back of my head of course.
“See..?!you’re not doing your job! I can even fired you anytime I want…”, I feel paralyzed the moment I heard that, I don’t even remember how he came closer.
“Of course, I won’t do that, if you will give me what I want”, getting closer and closer, touched my hair, caressed my face, my back and whispered, “You’re being a good girl”.
“Ah-ahm-si-sir-no-p-please..”, I don’t even know what to do.
“Sssshhh, trust me”, when someone knocks, “Shit! Who’s that?!”, he shouted the person outside his office.
“Sir, it’s me Jerome, I’m here to give you the final drawing for your new project to Mr. Brown!”, oh thank god your here.
“Your friend is here, we’re not done Erin, come in!”, his mouth twisted into a grimace, he had no choice. I’m very thankful Jerome came in time.
“Oh, hi Erin, I didn’t know you were here!” Jerome was shocked when he saw me.
“Uhm-y-yah! I’m just trying to fix his computer. Well, actually, I didn’t know how did it happened, so, I’m checking for the possible solutions.”, while explaining everything to Jerome. I saw this dirty old man glanced at me and smirked again. Jerome decided to help me to resolve the issue, ’cause I know he’s better than me, though his working as an architect of that company. He also took an IT course.
“Okay, let me see..”, I didn’t know how to say thanks to this man who save my day. While he’s fixing the computer, Mr. Santiago looking at me like he wanted to take off my clothes. Argh, he looks disgusting!
“I’m done! You can now use your computer, sir.”
“Both of you can go!”, he dismissed us immediately. I was at the back of Jerome follow his way outside Mr. Santiago’s office, but he blocked my way.
“Don’t tell everyone, you don’t know what I’m capable of.”, I just nodded and continue to walk.
“Hey are you okay, you look sick?”, I wanted to tell him I’m not okay and yes I’m sick… sicked and tired with that dirty old man. But I need to keep my mouth shut until I found a new job. I just hugged Jerome while holding back my tears.
“Thank you!”
“Hey, is something happened inside? Did he hurt you?”, it’s more than that if you just only knew what happened before you arrived.
“I’m taking my leave today, I forgot that I have to run some errands”, I get my bag and leave the office immediately, “I’ll call you when I got home, bye and thanks again.”
“Okay, just let me know if you need help, bye! What happen to her why she’s in a hurry?” Jerome go back to his department.

I can’t go home right now it’s too early, I went to the coffee shop not to take a cup of coffee but to read the newspaper I bought. I open the job section, I need to find a new job before I submit my resignation to Mr. Santiago.
I woke up early morning to submit my resignation letter to the hr department. Thank god I didn’t saw Mr. Santiago around the office. I don’t have time to say goodbye to the IT dept. because I have an early interview today. I just call Jerome to pack all my things.
“But, why and where are you right now? You didn’t tell me that you have planned on leaving the company. Is there anything wrong?”
“I can’t answer right now just fix my things and let me know if you got home and I’ll get it… I need to hang up the phone I’m in a hurry… I’ll call you later once I’m done and explain everything, okay, bye!”, I turned off my phone, I know he will feed me with a lot of questions.
“Erin where a….. Where the hell is she, damn it!” I know, probably by now, he’s mad.

I just came in time to JP Bank Co. and the woman in a front desk approached me, I think she’s in the mid of her thirties. I came here for the final interview, I’ve got my initial interview through phone, they told me to come for the final interview.
“Just give me your resume and wait until your name to be called!”, she point out on her right side, if I’m not mistaken, that’s the waiting area. I sit together with the other applicant, I wore my usual attire in the office, sleeveless blouse tucked into flared slacks. When I heard my name, some applicants stared at me like they wanted to eat me. What the hell is wrong with them, I didn’t kill anyone. Well, it’s not my fault if I didn’t wait that long. “That’s me!” I raised my hand and walk confidently.
“Okay, Ms. Keller, it’s just a few steps away from the waiting area, go straight, then enter to the 1st door, left side. No need for you to knock because he is expecting you today”, she instructed me the way to the interviewer. I did what she instructed and open the door without knocking.
“So early, please take a seat”, of course, this is my final interview and I need this job. I muttered under my breath. I occupied the vacant chair in front of his table.
“So, why do you leave your previous job?”, that’s the first question?
“Ahm…sir, do you want me to introduce myself first?”,
“I already re’d your CV and no need for you to repeat what’s written on that piece of paper..can you just answer my question?”
“Okay, I’m sorry…”, I leave my current job because my boss is a psychopath. Of course, I didn’t tell that but I wanted too. “Because, after several years on my last job, I’m looking for a company where I can contribute and grow in a team-oriented environment.”,good answer! What about a big round of applause for myself. But I keep on wondering why he’s facing an opposite direction, since I was arrived. This is how he made an interview? All I can see was his back view, why do I have a feeling I know this guy. From the sound of his voice and the way he talk , or maybe I’m just being paranoid. But the guy I knew and this man they have in common.
“You can able to contribute from your previous company, Ms. Erin Keller, just let me know how will I help you…”, turned his back and walk near to his table. When I saw his face clearly, I felt like I saw a ghost..a monster!Holy crap!…WTF! I was dumbfounded to what I saw, it can’t be him!


DISCLAIMER: photo not mine, grabbed from google.

The Sunday Currently: Volume 03


Yay, I’m on my third volume and I’m happy for doing this weekly. Last Sunday I was watching ARROW , now, I’m watching BEAUTY & the BEAST (still a series). Just recap before watching the latest season.

here it goes:

READING : others blog.
WRITING : my entry for 100 words story on 11th of December.
LISTENING : Rain tic.
THINKING : more of a serious thing I’m dealing with.
SMELLING : my coffee.
WISHING :  everything goes according to my plan.
HOPING : I can buy all the materials I need for my home project.
WEARING : loose shirt that I wore last night.
LOVING : my nail color.
WANTING : to get a quick shower.
NEEDING : time for myself.
FEELING : kinda irritated.
CLICKING : for a new haircut.

Originally made by  siddathornton

Until next Sunday!